Breadcrumbs

What's stopping me from realizing my dreams? From becoming all that I am to be. Is there anything? Or is it all part of the process? Both? I can recall some times where I would reach a state of pure realization and I would be shown the sheer magnitude of that power and what it had the ability to change. In this state I would sometimes pull back because of the changes I would be shown that would happen if I were to embrace it. From this state I took back with me the statement, “We are all God but we are terrified of the responsibility”. I realize the truth or talk with God all the time and then I bring that to my every day life and train my ego how to apply it to my reality. I am in the process of uniting my ego with God. With the All. With the Absolute. When they fully unite the two will dissolve into each other. “When” isn't the word best for this description. The two are already united at their core, I just experience states of separation but this is an illusion, an illusion in place to teach me a new way to unite the two with more strength. There is a process I am becoming aware of. I think of a new way to facilitate this union, I then begin to imagine how I would manifest this new way. A part of me then sees it as something that has the potential to attach me to itself. Then I recoil from the suggestion because I think about how I revere it as something that in itself is God and that this method in itself will deliver me, and with this thought, the fear of losing it is also created. And with this fear I refrain from the method. For an example. I have been learning about fasting and decided that switching to a very short eating window of approximately 1-2 hours would be greatly beneficial for my union. I see the steps necessary to bring me to this state and work is presented to me. I then analyze this as something that I would think would alone bring me to God, it would be that last thing to get me there permanently. My ticket out. And when I see it this way my analytical mind sees it as something that I could get lost in and become disappointed with when it doesn't deliver me to where I want to be, causing me to refrain from doing the beneficial act in the first place. There is no one thing that will bring me there and leave me there permanently, it is all things. And I am always already there, it's just a matter of remembering it. Using methods to guide me there but then letting them go when I am at the gate. All methods can do is show me the way, only I can walk through the door. So do the methods, all the methods, if it has some inherent path in it, then follow it. The point of the breadcrumb trail is not to eat the bread, it is to entice you to keep walking.